well I am extremely sorry that is has been forever since I have posted on here but I am sure you will understand once I tell you alittle bit about what all has been going on in my life. 

My fiancee and myself are no more after three years and plans to get married in June .  this is after I sell my house in cincinnati where we both lived and move to NC and buy the house she wants and furnish it with what she wants. She wanted to move to NC to go to school which was cool with me when she told me she was going to be finished in two years but as soon as we get down there her time line became 4 years and a intership after that, and I am left tring to strugling for us to make it finaically.  I was tring to suck it up and work with what I had but then she had a mental break and decided that she didn't want any help getting through it and moved out and left me with the house and all the payments and all alone in NC not really knowing anyone.  well I am not certain where I am going from here but I will tell you one thing I have been really torn up and heart broken about all the things that have taken place over the last few months.  hopefully the next few months my heart will mend and I can figure out what I am going to do with my life